The Beginning

For a long time now i have been thinking to start writing a blog. But could never bring myself to actually start writing. Why if you ask me, well, even i don't know the answer. Is it because i have chronic depression, postpartum depression, or once i heard one psychiatrist say, bipolar.

I don't know, as of now i have no answer. Now, you will ask me why aren't you taking help. To answer your question, yes i am now. But picking up my phone to call a therapist/counselor/psychiatrist (whatever you please), was a battle into itself .

How I am dealing with all these things, I am not sure, because as of now, I am at my weakest stage. The helplessness, the loneliness, the hopelessness, the emptiness. I am feeling it all.

Don't know how many of you out there are dealing with all of it all alone. Feeling so vulnerable. 

So, here i am writing a blog, sharing my experience, my journey through mental well-being, writing about the stigma surrounding mental health in our country. My battle with depression and going through my treatment for being a bipolar, over emotional, over sensitive person.

The effects it will have on my child, the attitude of my husband (which has almost lead to the breakup of my marriage), non-understanding parents, in-laws, relatives, society, Lack of friends. All these contributing to a new low, taking me more down-under.

Hope to be your friend, hope you to be my friend, through it all.